I thought about this quite hard on the way home, and to be honest, a significant part of the purpose of this journal is me recording my thoughts about taking control of my body. Body shape and body image and the processes that accompany that are going to be an important part of all that so second guessing myself the whole time when writing that will wind up breaking a lot of what I'm doing here. In the end I'm sorry, but that's central enough to my life that I'm not prepared to self-censor and place blocks like that in my own way when I'm already struggling in a lot of cases to record my thoughts.