This was a difficuly read for me but from re-reading I am getting that you're not necessarily saying you are wishing you had experiences of harassment, discrimination, violence and sexism that 'some' women have experienced. You are simply saying that you have not (thankfully) experienced it. It doesn't make you any less of who you are or who you want to be, expect from perhaps fortunate enough to not have that history that 'some' women (and some men) have gone through just because of their gender (or who they are).