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sacredchao) wrote2012-09-04 11:09 pm
sacredchao) wrote2012-09-04 11:09 pm
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Another step forward
I called the surgeon's office today and made an appointment for an initial consultation at the end of the month. That's all the intermediaries dealt with now and it's really just a matter of a certain amount of preparation and waiting. More scary and exciting. All that intervening time will fly past before I know it.
This is not the endgame. It's a major milestone but there's a perception that surgery is the be all and end all of transition or even that it *is* transition. I've already transitioned. My life has changed, I've repositioned and recontextualised myself socially and this is simply addressing a key point of the physical dysphoria. It will make the process of continuing to define myself a *lot* easier and resolve all sorts of cognitive, metacognitive and emotional dissonances. So it's less a goal and more of a major milestone in the journey. Beyond that there aren't all that many big events; I just get on with my life and with working out what that life entails.
For all that I know it's going to be a painful, expensive and tedious process I can't begin to explain adequately how much I'm looking forward to it though. It's not going to be a magic bullet for my life - nothing is that. It will make me feel so much more coherent though. It'll make me that much more myself. I get to appreciate how much that can mean and I wonder how many people really get to understand that at a visceral level.
This is not the endgame. It's a major milestone but there's a perception that surgery is the be all and end all of transition or even that it *is* transition. I've already transitioned. My life has changed, I've repositioned and recontextualised myself socially and this is simply addressing a key point of the physical dysphoria. It will make the process of continuing to define myself a *lot* easier and resolve all sorts of cognitive, metacognitive and emotional dissonances. So it's less a goal and more of a major milestone in the journey. Beyond that there aren't all that many big events; I just get on with my life and with working out what that life entails.
For all that I know it's going to be a painful, expensive and tedious process I can't begin to explain adequately how much I'm looking forward to it though. It's not going to be a magic bullet for my life - nothing is that. It will make me feel so much more coherent though. It'll make me that much more myself. I get to appreciate how much that can mean and I wonder how many people really get to understand that at a visceral level.
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