Part of my life

[sacredchao]

Nearly fifteen years ago I was sitting in a bedroom in a house in Cairns watching a kitten being born. She and her sister followed me through 14 instances of moving house, three long term relationships, including one marriage, half a degree and gender transition. She kept me sane and loved and provided me with the one constant in my life.

I haven't seen her for nearly five days.

This is unheard of for her. She greets me loudly when I come home, bugs me in the kitchen, sits on my bed and talks to me. I took her to the vet recently and the blood and urine tests they did showed that she has both hyperthyroidisn and kidney dysfunction, both moderate. On Saturday her breathing was laboured and I watched her closely but on Sunday morning she seemed fine again so I let her out as I left the house on Sunday morning because the weather was sunny. I have not seen her since.

I live in hope that I'll see her again but somehow I have a gut feeling that I won't and it's a horrible horrible feeling. I just hope she found somewhere comfortable. Fifteen years is a long friendship.

I love my stripyhead. I want her back.

Comments

[doushkasmum]

That is a very sad thing. Loosing a friend is always hard, but the uncertanty does make it worse. *sympathy*

[villana.livejournal.com]

I really hope she turns up.
=(

[quatrefoil.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear this - I hope she comes back too. You are in my thoughts.

[montjoye.livejournal.com]

I'm sad for you for this. My fingers crossed for her safe return.

[ms-kilian.livejournal.com]

So sorry to hear this.

[f-m-r-l.livejournal.com]

*hugs*

[kateelliott.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry. I hope she either returns or has found a peaceful place.