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An odd day today. I've become increasingly aware that I'm uncomfortable using the men's toilets at work. I'm embarrassed to be seen entering or leaving to the point that I hide in the cubicle until they're empty or the only people in there are clearly safely cloistered in their own cubicle so I can escape unseen. It's making me anxious and nervous about the whole process which feels somewhat oppressive. Now this isn't an indictment of my workplace, we've mentioned it as a potential future discussion but I never expected to to take on this level of urgency.

I just don't belong in there and having to squeeze past someone hulking over one of the urinals is getting intimidating. Note that I don't actually have to squeeze past but that's how it *feels*. I guess there's been a degree of consolidation in how I view myself lately and the need to assert and normalise that is getting greater and greater on several fronts, this just being one of the more personally confronting ones. I think I'm going to insist on making this a priority tomorrow, it's really unpleasant.

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Date: 2011-08-01 11:27 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] hometime.livejournal.com
Can you use disabled toilets, which are often non-gendered?

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Date: 2011-08-01 11:28 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] splodgenoodles.livejournal.com
I thinks that seems like a very good idea.

FWIW, I've been observing a lot of more sudden changes in you lately, but not ones I can readily pinpoint. Maybe a faster rate of change? Not sure.

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Date: 2011-08-01 11:34 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sacred-chao.livejournal.com
hometime: None on that floor and possibly the building. Not sure what the legalities of that are but that's how it is.

splodge: Oh surely, I suspect I've reached a point where it's concrete enough that I can't go back and I can't really stay where I am so forward is the only way. There have been a lot of little epiphanies and some radical comfort zone expansion. I guess this is just one of those rapid development times.

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Date: 2011-08-02 03:29 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] villana.livejournal.com
Is it illegal to be in another genders toilets? If so I'm a criminal in almost every pub/bar/club in Melb. If there's a cue for the ladies, I've used the mens.

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Date: 2011-08-02 04:59 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sacred-chao.livejournal.com
The gender reversal makes the difference. A woman using the men's toilets isn't generally considered to be a threatening thing, at least not in the immediate physical sense.

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Date: 2011-08-02 06:47 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] villana.livejournal.com
No, I meant.. you said "Not sure what the legalities of that" and I thought you meant it was illegal for you to use either the diabled or the Ladies.

Anyway, I think it boils down to how you are presenting. If you are presenting as female at work, then use the Ladies and I dare them to stop you.

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Date: 2011-08-02 10:18 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] sacred-chao.livejournal.com
Ah, I meant the legalities of them operating a building occupied by that many staff with no disabled access toilets. I'm not actually anticipating any difficulties, I've had an astoundingly good response to my transitioning at work and I fully expect 99% of people to be behind me. It just has to be understood that that's what I'm doing rather than just diving in there on an ad hoc basis. I just wasn't expecting it to suddenly become this important to me.

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