The voices in my head.
Sep. 1st, 2011 12:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sacredchaoWell that's two nights in a row when I slept so little that by the time my alarm went off I'd had less than two hours sleep in total. Given how wide ranging my shouting mind is over those hours, I think I'm going to sit down today and actually draw a diagram that shows the inter-relations between all of this crap. If nothing else, it might pin down what I'm most twitchy about and maybe externalise things a bit. I might also head up to the chemist and see if they have anything over the counter which will help me sleep...I have to pick up my sleep debt tonight.
The anxiety at the moment is affecting me enough that I have a constant low level actual physical reaction to it; I have that adrenal, heart-in-my-throat feeling with light nausea and acing muscles. I thought it was a virus of some kind but now I don't think it is. Why did my therapist's appendix choose now to explode?
The anxiety at the moment is affecting me enough that I have a constant low level actual physical reaction to it; I have that adrenal, heart-in-my-throat feeling with light nausea and acing muscles. I thought it was a virus of some kind but now I don't think it is. Why did my therapist's appendix choose now to explode?
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Date: 2011-09-01 03:09 am (UTC)They can check the routine stuff, and possibly help more with the anxiety. I mean, dear god you've got enough going on that quite justifies a spot of something to tide you over.
Good luck with the diagram. Don't run out of paper!
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Date: 2011-09-01 03:27 am (UTC)Also, is there a helpline you can call to talk things through in the interim - like Lifeline but more targetted to the trans community?
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Date: 2011-09-01 04:39 am (UTC)*snugs forth* Want to come over and hash out brainmeets this weekend?
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Date: 2011-09-02 02:20 am (UTC)(no subject)
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Date: 2011-09-01 05:45 am (UTC)Writing things down or doing a bit of a mind map of what is buzzing around your head can help.
Something you can do tonight to help is meditate. Seriously. One of the best tools you can use to calm your mind.
If you have iTunes, search the iTunes store for "Lisa Dale Miller". She has 4 guided meditations (all as seperate podcasts, which is a bit weird). I would recommended starting with "Mindfulness of Breath Practice for Beginners". I find it very effective for clearing my head. Download the podcast, put it onto an iPod or similar, put headphones on, get comfortable and give it a go. The meditation goes for ~20 minutes or so. I often do mindfulness of breath practice before going to bed if my brain won't shut up.
It won't be a 100% solution as your brain will probably start buzzing again afterwards, but with practice it will get easier and the effects will last longer. Even though she says not to fall asleep, I think it's fine to if that's what you need to do. If you wake up in the night you can play it again to help quiet your brain again.
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